Feeling Like A Fraud

Peter Germany

Sep 23

I've not blogged much recently because I've been feeling like I'm talking and talking and not getting anywhere. I felt disillusioned as I haven't got anything published for a while. Despite the fact that what I've been doing is getting projects cleaned up and ready to be submitted or self-published, I was still feeling like a fraud.

But I have been working fairly consistently.

I've only had four days this month where I haven't done some form of writing work. I've written 1908 words but have edited 76368 words.

I am making progress, I'm just frustrated because I know my zombie novella won't be out this year now. It's ready to be formatted and the cover art is all but done, but cash flow will stop it from being out this year. I'm gutted about this. I'm really happy with how it's come out, but I've got to accept the situation.

Penal Earth is done. I'm just waiting to pitch it to a publisher early next year, but if they turn it down I'll get it submitted elsewhere and if I have no luck I'll get it edited and self-published.

The vampire book is all but done. I've got my hard copy with a few little red-pen notes and then it's ready to be serialised on my Ko-Fi page next year, in my Welcome To my Nightmare tier. I've not sure if I've shared that, but that's where it's going to start its life. I've tried to set it up so that it's episodical, so I hope I've done it in a way that it works.

Black Blood is tidier than I thought it was. I think it's not far off being done. Once I've done my current pass I'll be printing it off and doing that final red-pen pass and then that too will be ready for submitting or self-publishing.

Once I am done with those I'll be done with all of them. These four projects have dominated my writing path for far too long and it's time I wrapped them up and sent them off into the world.

Then, maybe I won't feel like the pretender I don't want to be.